...is hard. Even if it's a lost cause, even if there's nothing you can do to salvage the situation, for some reason it's next to impossible to just leave everything behind and start afresh. So what if the bad outshines the good? There's still that little
something that's making you cling onto the past for dear life.
Can one truly move on? What exactly does it entail, anyway? Do you no longer think about a certain someone
at all? Is it when you've stopped holding grudges against them? When you can finally be happy for them when they introduce their new boy/girlfriend to you?
For some people moving on is a life-long process. Sometimes they never succeed. So often I hear married people say they're still in love with their ex, or that they think about their first love and ask 'what if'. It saddens me.
It takes strength to move on, especially when the relationship has meant something to you. It requires efforts to constantly keep your thought process in check. It's one hell of a roller coaster ride, if you ask me. One minute you're fine and dandy, sure that you're completely over whoever you need to get over in the first place. Next you're bawling your eyes out, wondering what could have been, would have been. Your mind turns into a battlefield. Your veins fill with hatred.
Why is s/he not miserable? How dare s/he be happy when I'm not? It's ugly, and the worst thing is this can happen at the most unexpected moment. No forewarning. No time to brace yourself for the impact. It just... happens, and then you're a mess.
What's surprising is that even when you don't actually want to be with that certain someone yourself, even when you know precisely
why you don't want to be with them, even when your only advice to anyone considering dating them is to drop them like a scalding hot potato, it still bloody hurts. It's shocking really. The human mind - it boggles me.
I guess it's all part of the package. You play the game, you risk losing. The lesson here? Learn to pick up the broken pieces of your heart. Glue them together and put the finished product back into your chest cavity. Keep the good memories but don't forget to dig out the bad ones too. Rationality is your best friend at this trying time.
